Log#1
This is my first and 100% spoiler free playthrough of the VN. So far I have no idea on what I'm going to experience. I barely dipped my toes into it. I'm making this an early lore-less post just to filter my first thoughts. Writing this made me interested in documenting my experience. I always forget how I feel on each stage of a show. This time it won't happen. I'll revisit these posts in the far future. I'll upload these posts along as I go with the game.
Background: recently turned 18 (I need to consume as much content as I can, so I'll be able to relate or simp to characters without weirdness while I can)
Spoiler
I really love the aesthetics so far. The main menu, options, backlog, UI, audio, especially the pc noise. They feel unique. I love them being pc themed. Same with the 3D graphics. This shipping container of Takumi's really fits here. I understand what NonoEnjoyer meant by the icky but fitting aesthetics. Coming from a Steins;Gate background, it's interesting to see.
Regarding the prologue. It was really interesting to see. I still don't know what it had really meant, maybe those were Takumi's delusions? Alternate reality? Future? I loved it being so poetic, want to see more of this stuff.
Regarding the main menu opening and the one after the prologue. They're great, as I could've expected. I'd say much better than the one in Steins; Gate 0. Kanako Ito is always delivering top tier performance. I love her music.
I have no idea on what Takumi's personality really is, but I like it so far. I'm nowhere near such a no life as he is, but some of it, small bits of it feel relatable.
His schizophrenic delusions made me remember something. When I was a kid, not a long time ago, I remember thinking if people could hear my thoughts. I don't know if I had really believed it, but just to make sure, or out of sheer boredom, I'd say completely obscene things in my mind and "make them aware" that I know that they can listen. This was completely harmless, it was rare and stopped on its own. I'd regard it more of as OCD. But regarding the "gaze". I don't think that it happened in my life often if at all. Still there were some times that it did. I can't remember exactly why tho... Maybe during horrible emotional moments, or when I felt paranoid, weirdly philosophical. Nothing to be concerned with. But when he started talking about it in game, I realized that I am his gaze. And then I thought about my gaze. I felt the way he did, for a rlly short time. Imagine an infinite loop of gazes lol.
I'm super curious on how I'll look back on what I wrote here. You can always change your mind about a character. This is very likely to happen to me, since I almost don't know anything about him yet. I'll probably want to take back some of my words here lmao.
Though I'm kinda worried that Chaos;Head might make me absorb Takumi's personality too much lol. I have a habit of soaking up the personalities of characters that in some ways I relate to, or I think that I do. This happened with Rei Ayanai, Okabe Rintaro and more. Usually it only lasts for the time that I keep thinking about the show. Some parts of them however, stay idealized in me forever.









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