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Fuck i just lost the "game" that Taku was describing. He only needed to say that something insanely terrifying could be behind him. Wtf how does he resist paranoia like that? He's probably feeling as paranoid as I had felt recently
Edit: Oh I guess that he had lost too... Just like me. Taku, am I really "those eyes"? Or is it someone else? If that's me, well I'm sorry. But I'm being fucking watched too, I guess that you struggle a bit more than me tho...

So far I've reached the point where he's with Yua at the park.

About Takumi. After seeing some of his social interactions, I think that I've changed my mind about him a bit. Not that I dislike him, but I kinda hate his attitude towards his sister. Honestly this might be the least relatable thing of his for me. I don't like pushing people away, I try to be kind to them, and leave the dark thoughts in my head. Maybe I hate such behavior because that's what my irl sister is like to me sometimes. I understand it though. If I was really focused on something, and someone was annoying to me, I would probably do the same.
Now venturing into the things that I found more relatable. Mainly him being a pushover and having an inferiority complex. His scenes with Yua made me realize how much of a people pleaser he really is. If someone is nice enough to him, he'll do anything, he feels easy to manipulate. That's what I'm like too...
I cant stand for myself. I feel obligated to do stuff that other people ask me for.
Similarly with the inferiority complex of his. His life left him broken. He probably never had any normal interactions or people that cared about him. Everyone was a DQN to him. Stuff like that really makes you feel pathetic. Even more so when it's justified in reality, when you are an Otaku freak.
It's the same with me really. I feel similar to him a lot of the time. The thing is, that I'm not an Otaku freak. I'm just a freak. I'm so deluded about myself, unable to escape that fate. I'm pathetic. Some people here would agree with what I said. Everyone says that "as long as you're not annoying, I'll be okay with you." That's just a lie. I have empathy for him because I know what it feels like to consider yourself a freak. To think of that during every social interaction with someone, that you don't know yet...

About the first delusion that I had chosen.
What I did to Takumi's sister was crazy. I didn't expect that. But once it happened, I thought that she'd visibly burst from the cola or some shit. I also didn't want to pick the green option since someone on the forum said it means "horny". Duh, even Taku said that his piss smelling sister was repulsive to him. Why would I subject him to that?

About Yua.
At first I was a little suspicious of her. But after it turned out that she was just kinda into him, I disliked that he was so quiet and indifferent to her. I definitely don't suffer socially the way he does. I would probably at least try to throw some awkward conversation together. Throughout these interactions with Yua, he definitely felt annoying, but I rooted for him. It seemed like it might make his social skills better. That's why I chose the green delusion for his base scene. I had hoped that it might make him more socializable. I didn't want him to freak out or anything.
Yua herself is really nice. But just like Taku, I can't believe that her intentions are real. Well I'm playing a VN after all, so they might be. She's either a perfect otaku girlfriend, or has some ulterior motives behind. If I was Taku, I'd probably still treat her nicely and find out the truth that way. Taku seems too broken for that though...

Now about Yua and the scene at the park. As I'm writing this, I am on the delusion selection scene. I don't know what is going to happen next, I can only guess.
Here's the thing tho. I might be a freaking esper or some shit. It happened to me before with the "deja vu" thingy.
During the scene on the bench, I really started getting suspicious of her. Before I had thought that she might be an otaku girl that actually likes people like Takumi. But something felt wrong to me. I thought about her a bit more, and then I remembered "New Gen". Instantly, the scene with the bag and pc monitor flashed through my mind. You won't believe what happened next. THE VN LITERALLY SHOWS THE BAG ON THE BENCH. Takumi notices it. At that point I knew that something was wrong... I really don't know if the VN's plot was created in such a masterful way, or if I have the mind of Takumi. It's ridiculous that I predicted such a major scene to the nail AGAIN. At this point I'm not even paranoid, because it's daytime. But it really feels weird, I can't lie.
Now I'm considering to chose the "bad" delusion. I'm really suspicious of Yua. I don't want Takumi to fall into a trap. I'll manipulate him into freaking out. I need to save him. Basing around off that Demon girl scene, it seems like this VN goes much deeper. I just don't know when is it going to happen. It might be now.

Give me feedback if this is even readable, or tedious to read. I'm not the best at english grammar.